"Because I will recklessly abandon all insecurities and expose my true self to the world. I will become immune to the impact of your opinion and stand naked in a crowd of ideas; comfortable in knowing that while you married the mundane I explored the exceptional." Author unknown.
Amsterdam is an odd city. In a good way. There is so much interesting surrounding you every day. I find most European cities overall quite similar but each having its unique selling points. Now that i have lived in Amsterdam a little more than two years i have learned to know this city quite well, we have become friends and i can call it my second home.
Observing people is already so educating, especially when there are so many different nationalities. I wish more people would pay attention to other people, what they are actually saying, their behaviour, why they do the things the way they do them and try to understand them instead of valuing speaking.
I started school again, which is really easy at the moment. I have to go to school three times a week and have one lecture per day, plus few meetings occasionally. It's a students dream.
Most of my time back in the Netherlands has gone for bureaucracy. I had to fix all my papers for my new job, for Dutch health insurance, for study finance and much more. It's a headache but once all is done i can live in peace.
My new job sounds pretty interesting. I sell drugs at the red light district. ??? Actually, i am working in another souvenir shop than the previously, which is located in the red light district, so when i work i can also enjoy the view of some pretty ladies across me, and the shop also includes selling soft, smart drugs. It really amazes me that it is so normal to sell drugs here and selling drugs is not only a job for some low life drug addicts, dealers or outlaws. I now know so much about drugs, knowledge that i am not probably going to use much in my future career, but it is still very interesting. More like fun fact knowledge or trivia knowledge. And it is also a much cooler story than for example: " During my studies i worked as a shop assistant." Especially where i come from it sounds peculiar and abnormal.
Now that i have settled in my life is slowly becoming a routine. School, work bureaucracy. I live near a ghetto. Rumour has it that sometimes also gun shootings take place there. I hope nothing like that will spice up my world once i am having a boring day. My building corridors and elevators smell like weed most of the time. When the elevator broke for one day and i had to use the stairs from the tenth floor going down and up again, on half of the floors i saw smoked joints, on one of them i found an empty wine bottle and one smelled like urine. Otherwise, it is a nice location. Easy access to the centre and shopping streets are only 2 minutes away from my place. If i only had money i could go crazy.
I went to a museum. I haven't done that for a long time and feel that i need to become more cultivated. I went to Stedelijk museum to see the exhibition of Marcel Wanders, a leading designer of recent decades. It was very interesting and i am glad that i had the chance to go. I also felt envy for such creative minds that they can come up with such innovative, remarkable and amazing ideas.
In two days i am going back home to Estonia for a week. I can't wait to see my family and friends again who i haven't seen in over a year! I am as happy as a kid on Christmas :)